ArtCard in memory!

Hey you guys!

Long time no post huh!?

I hope that you’re doing well.

I’ve had a seizure that has put me out for sometime.

It reminded me or made me think of my ancestor Prince John and his situation in 1919. I talk a bit about it in a video that I’ll post under this.

I tend to go on and on in the video, etc.

I apologise for that ahead of time and for any mistakes I made but I am also still recovering.

Although, some may think so, I’m also not as intelligent as the character Sheldon Cooper.

My father called me that once. It was REALLY ANNOYING!

Having epilepsy growing up, the only thing I could memorise were Hymns and songs.

Sadly, I was anything but someone who could fully understand all things. I watched as OTHERS could think clearly, etc. That is how I do not get jealous of some things that others do. I learned not to but it took YEARS because my seizures started at 12yrs old! My point, I missed out on ALOT of life. I do not deserve nor wish to miss out on more!

After my first day or so of high school, I was put in the learning disability wing due to my epilepsy interrupting classes, etc. My being in the learning disability wing, I was SO smart that I’d check others papers off of mine because I made 100%!

At the time, that taught me to be a teachers assistant more than anything else though. I just wasn’t being paid for it. I was also known as the teachers pet which created issues with my popularity.

I was only treated normally in theatre, which I started at 15yrs. I grew to love it.

Although, I did not judge and would give just about anyone who was kind to me a huge hug, that was not understood at the time. I do not know what schools are like today but at that time, there was alot of judgement going around in schools.

STILL, my brain wouldn’t let me learn all things. If it had I probably would have more in common with the character Sheldon Cooper, which is a tad scary to think about.

Moving on, you’ll see from this first photo that I was in a boot for a month. It was VERY PAINFUL! I’m still recovering too and you’d think that it’s been long enough. Still, I am very close to being 100% again.

Last months boot!

This is a feather that I found in my yard. I stare at things that capture my attention. I bet it makes some wonder but there is usually a reason for it.

It’s not like I’m staring off into space hearing voices. I’m not THAT bad off!

Anyway, this time, it was a feather!

I talk a bit about this feather in the video I share as well! I’m not sure what kind of feather it is, etc. so if you know please leave a comment letting me know here or write me privately.

This was obviously made to talk about my day!!! Although allergic, I love feathers don’t you?

This next photo is taken of my studio and as seen I do have ornaments hanging in memory of my ancestors.

I like thinking of the fact that every leaf I painted on my wall represents someone who has inspired me.

That would be the people who have inspired me in my life, in tv shows, movies, the theatre, or anywhere else too! They are each just as meaningful as my ancestors because to me everyone matters. In my eyes, even those you disagree with matter. It’s sometimes best to just respectfully stay away from some.

As seen under my Mary Queen of Scots ornament is a Highland cow decal! I love highland cows, don’t you!? I have two of those in this room.

One represents Andy The Highlander and another represents the wonderful Ana The Highlander. Ana is Andy’s wife!

My studio table!

I’m working on this photo of me with my grandmother! I talk about that too in the video I will be sharing!

Thanks to any and all who have inspired me and helped me right now. Trust me! I need all the help and understanding I can get.

Photo that I’m working on.

This is the video I spoke of. Warning! It is not short and I DO make a few mistakes, etc. NOBODY is perfect.

The video can be found https://youtu.be/H5rP3onYo90

Please turn up the volume if you DO watch my video and note that I am doing all of this on my own.

I’m not sure if this video will even work but I’m not one NOT to try. I also do not look wonderful because honestly I’m not 100% yet, but I am NOT one to only think of how I look or actually care about that much.

Next is a collage that I made in memory of my grandmother!

The drawings were all done by her! When we visited her, I loved drawing with her when possible.

I wish that we could have gone to her funeral but my father told me that we couldn’t go.

I honestly don’t know if that was because of my having epilepsy or not.

Now, I would have gone on my own if I had the money to do so. At the time, I honestly had never traveled on my own (I STILL haven’t) and was too scared to try.

Still, nomatter the reason it does not change the fact that I loved my grandmother and she loved me.

I’ve had the same thing happen with some I am NOT related to but who have touched my life.

When they pass, it’s as if I am COMPLETELY forgotten and was never in their lives. As if I don’t matter, even though it is obvious that some meant alot to me, feelings are really not important to some. They just say publicly that they are. The truth would mess up the facade that brings joy to their lives. Which is why they prefer to live a lie and judge those who live in truth.

Honestly, I don’t get it and it is hurtful. I understand that anyone who judges another person due to what they can’t help, etc. is unworthy of my emotions, thoughts or even the time it takes to think about though.

I NEVER imagined that I’d say or think this but there are some who I grew up with who will NEVER again hear from me, etc. due to heartbreak and judgement.

I’ve had enough of that in my life, I only need happy things now and friends who truly care. If someone doesn’t have the time to care about me, I do not have the time to care about them.

That being so, when someone is hurtful, it’s not long until I realise how unworthy that person is.

Nomatter who that person may be. Judgement is wrong period.

Moving on, the photo in this shows my grandmother at a younger age!

As promised for more info on epilepsy in the U.S.A. go to https://www.epilepsy.com/

To find info. in the U.K. please go to: https://epilepsysociety.org.uk/

I will not always speak about epilepsy or any other issue that I create awareness for.

This blog is mainly for art. Anything else is often too stressful for me so I can only speak of some things at certain times.

I am simply recovering from a seizure so speak up about Epilepsy right now.

This post is in memory of Prince John. Some may forget him but I never will. Distant or not.

If my video does not work, please note that STRESS is the leading cause of seizures. If his dr.s knew that in 1919 they would have advised his parents to take him out of the spotlight for his own well being.

In 1919 there was NO medication, surgery, etc. he would have gotten little to no help with his seizures. His parents saved his life by moving him away from that. THAT should be commended and is proof that they did infact love their child.

Why he was hidden after his death is beyond my comprehension but I believe that probably has more to do with the publics judgement of Epilepsy than anything else. People fear what they don’t understand.

Create awareness about it like Princess Diana created awareness of AIDS and that just may change at least to some degree.

If I’m correct, they had no way of helping AIDS victims when Princess Diana had the guts to treat AIDS victims normally.

Yet today, there is a pill that can save lives, etc.

I wonder what would be found to help those with Epilepsy if awareness were created for that too?

Until next time,

Namaste,

Angela